Wet Cheeks!

What are your deepest desires for your kids? Your list is probably long like mine but lately what’s continually on my heart and in my prayers is that they have a personal and deep relationship with Christ. It’s not something we can force on them, they were given free will just like us. As my children turn into teenagers and young adults it seems like my time to have an influence on them is slipping out of my hands. The older they get, the more they want to learn from the outside world and not their parents. It’s the natural order of things as they want to become their own person. I pray daily that our tragedy we went through brings them closer to Christ and not the opposite. I know it’s normal to push away from Him at certain times in our lives and they need to find their own path… their own faith… their own life (sniff, sniff).


So I pray, I pray like crazy that they will lean on him daily. So when the going gets tough they automatically go to him. Let it be the first thing they think to do, reach out to our Heavenly Father. Because of my own personal walk with Christ and knowing that the only way I got through the hard times were because I leaned on him. He was my strength when I had none.

“But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength they shall mount up with wings like eagles they shall run and not grow weary they shall walk and not faint.”

Isaiah 40:31

So when Beau and Levi followed in Wyatt’s footsteps and made their own decision to be baptized I was overjoyed!!! Wyatt was baptized a few years ago when he was 10.  I got him a Bible with his name engraved on it at the time and wrote on it the date of his baptism.  Thankfully I did because none of us could remember how old he was.  I wanted to find a picture of him being baptized so I started going back through all my picture from 2011.  No such luck; I couldn’t find it.  I settled for a picture of him at that age.


Wyatt 2011 wow has he changed!

I mentioned to the boys that they will have the opportunity to say something right before they are baptized if they want to.  Both of them told me “No thanks”, they didn’t want to talk in front of all those people.  Much to my surprise, they both took the microphone and had something to say.  They both thanked the congregation for being there for them, supporting them, and praying for them when we were going through such a hard time.  Levi went on to say how much his Young Life leaders and Malibu last year helped him.



Needless to say, I had wet cheeks!

I hear God saying PRAY, PRAY for your kids daily.  You never know what life is going to throw at them. It’s the best way to equip them to deal with life.  We all stumble and fall but it’s never to late to start praying.

Also, take comfort in the fact that other people in your children’s lives with different strengths are teaching your children too. There is more than just us shaping our children (thank you Jesus). God uses other people in our lives to help in the areas we are weaker in. I pray God will raise up Godly people around my children because when they turn into teenagers they have heard it all from us before and need a different voice to listen to. I feel like I’ve come up short as a parent in so many different ways, but I know they are in God’s hands and I take comfort from that.  

The time put in, in prayer for our children doesn’t go unnoticed by our savior. The impact prayer has on our children is unmeasurable and isn’t slipping out of God’s hands.

The impression that a praying mother leaves upon her children is life long.

~ Dewight L Moody


Disneyland Here we Come!

The count down has begun and we couldn’t be more excited!  Our church family came to us early on during our hospital stay and asked us what they could do for Beau to give him something to look forward to when he gets better. They asked what is something Beau would love that would encourage him? Ryan and I had no idea, so when were explaining it to Beau, we had all kinds of idea lined up to suggest.  But, before we were even done asking him what he wanted to do, he interrupted us and said I already know what I want.

“I want to go to Disneyland.”

(At this point just hearing him whisper the words, were a joy to our ears.  After being on the venerator for so many days, he hadn’t gotten his voice back yet and he spoke very rarley.)

You can’t even imagine how quickly this gift became so important to us.  While laying in the hospital room, needing a distraction because an upcoming procedure was on our mind, we would talk about Disneyland.  When needing the encouragement to stand up and try walking, we talked about Disneyland. When we were bored out of our minds, we would daydream about what treats we would eat and what would be our first ride to go on.

The amount of love and support we have felt through our community and church family have meant more to us than words can ever express.  Now our dreams are so close to coming true we can barely contain our excitement.


Photo courtesy of Heidi from the last time they went.

“All our dreams come true if we have the courage to pursue them.” ~Walt Disney

I’m personally excited about all the fun pictures I’m going to take.  I love this one so much, I just might have to recreate it😉.

Unfortunately as I type, Beau-man is home from school with an upset stomach.  Please pray he gets over it quickly and it doesn’t spread to the rest of the family.

God Bless,


P.S. oh…oh… I almost forgot to tell you… 10 members of my extended family have made their own travel plans to meet up with us!!! Isn’t that so exciting!!!

Let go and Let God

I’m finding “let go and let God” a common theme in my life right now.  A mantra I keep needing to repeat over and over again when something isn’t going my way.   I don’t see myself as a controlling person (it’s not what I would consider one of my strongholds, believe me, I have others.).  But, when looking back at situations I’m going through it seems to be what I keep going back to.  FullSizeRender

I feel this intense responsibly for how things workout and it’s really not my job.  When I’m faced with a conflict in a relationship, parenting, finances ect. I find myself having this big discussion with God on different ways to fix the problem.  Lord maybe if you do this than this will happen and it will all work out.  I’ve got some good ideas!  I do come up with some elaborate scenarios in my head.   When I realize what I’m doing, I laugh at myself and can just picture the big guy shaking his head at me and saying Ang, I got this I don’t need you to come up with ideas for me.  What I need you to do is just listen to me and be obedient in what I’m impressing upon your heart to do and I got the rest.


Then I got to thinking and I asked myself am I doing that?  Well… I just drew a blank and had no idea.  In the last six month I have started keeping a prayer journal so I went back through it and started looking at what some of my prayers were and jotted down some things I thought the holy spirit was asking me to do. I wanted something tangible to look at and the first three things on my list were:

  • Let go and let God
  • Trust Him
  • Be patient

All of those things are really hard for me and I’m not perfect by any means, but I can say that those top three thing I have been dilegently trying to do.  I keep trying and he keeps reminding me. Lol, sometimes I feel like a little kid that needs to be reminded over and over again util it sticks.  I’m so thankful for His patience, Amen!


Realizing that I’m not responsible for how things are worked out but what we need to do is the what God asks us to do. This is a really heavy weight lifted off my shoulders and one that I’m not equipped to carry, but He is!

So again I tell myself to LET GO AND LET GOD.

So I can take a deep breath relax and enjoy the little things in life like tissue paper flowers.  I’m getting ready for a little party at my house and thought it would be fun to add some color and spring to the inside of my house.  Ok…Ok… it’s my birthday this month and I wanted an excuse to tape big tissue paper flowers to my wall.


They’re are a ton of tutorials on Pinterest on how to make these so I’ll spare you all the details.


A couple tips I found out while making them though was:

  • I used 5 pieces of tissue paper for the body of the flower
  • 2 pieces of tissue for the center of the flower
  • I secured it with curling ribbon (it doesn’t need to be tight)
  • Fluff  then tape to your wall with painter tape


God Bless,


P.S. just in case you need another reminder like I do –  “Let go and Let God.”




Hey good lookin’ what’s cookin’?

What is for dinner? It seems to often be the question of the day!  I feel like somedays it takes way too much effort to come up with something that sounds good that everyone will eat.  Last week I was looking for a dressing to put on top of leftover taco meat and some greens that I was going to call my unplanned leftover dinner “taco salad”.   Here is what I came up with… a quick and easy Avocado Lime dressing with a few things I already had.


It was so easy I threw it all in my Vitamix and had a quick and easy revamp to boring old leftovers.


Avacado Lime Dressing

2 pitted avocados

1/2 cup avocado oil or olive oil

3/4- 1 cup cilantro

5 Tablespoons fresh lime juice

1/2 cup fresh orange juice

1 seeded, chopped jalapeno

Blend and season with salt and pepper if necessary.  No Vitamix? Any blender, immersion blender or food processor will work!

So that night we had taco salad but it makes a ton. So the next day I made this salad for lunch.


It was super easy too.  Just mixed greens, fresh berries and leftover grilled chicken.

I STILL have leftovers and I think the dressing would be a good topping for :



*taco soup

*anything you would use mayo or sour cream on

* chips…yes corn chips🙂 yum!

*baked potato

*breakfast hash….check the blog later for this one!

*fruit salad

Come on, use your imagination and let me know what you come up with!

By the way, yes this is paleo.  But it has been tested out on my fellow blogger, Ang and she gives it the seal of approval.  See, I just might get some of you to eat paleo after all🙂




Heartache and Laughter


I think it’s safe to say we have all had heartaches.  Some are small and some are big.  When I was a teen my mom died.  She was only 40, battled cancer and left us far too soon.  My heart was broken.  I physically was ill and felt like I had an actual hole in my heart.  A part of me was missing.  I can’t even write these words without getting weepy.  The reminder of that pain can actually make my heart hurt like that all over again.  This was all 30, yes THIRTY, years ago. Continue reading